I’m back in Oregon…

Due to some last minute drama, my mother and her boyfriend came and got me and all of my things Wednesday evening. I spent the night with them and Joshua before we headed out Thursday morning (Joshua will be here by Monday night).
We got here late last night, and my big brother’s birthday was Wednesday. I didn’t think he was as upset as he apparently was that my mother came to get me and was gone on his birthday, but he is. I feel terrible. I ruined his birthday for him because I couldn’t handle my life.  What a wonderful sister I am.
And the worst part, is that he isn’t even mad at me. He’s mad at Mom. I couldn’t hate myself more right now. I shouldn’t have come home. I shouldn’t have been so weak.