March 2012
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I want to shoot EVERYONE.
February 2012
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Oh yeah, and....
My school is retarded. I was (supposed to be, anyway) dropped from classes last week, and yet today I received all kinds of e-mails from school officials as if I were still in classes. So now I have to get up early tomorrow (after a LONG ass day today) and get this shit all figured out to make sure I’m NOT still enrolled in classes. Blech.
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I got to see my honey tonight.
We had dinner with his family and my madre and her bf. It was good and wasn’t too much drama or anything. Actually everyone was really civil. Tomorrow I’m pretty much spending the day with him, which will be fun, and showing them around Beaverton and Portland a bit. So we’ll see how it goes.
Honestly, as far as my depression goes, I’m feeling a lot better now that I know...
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February 27th: Day 11
I couldn’t test myself this morning for protein loss because either A) Someone threw them away or B) Someone knocked them into the trash and couldn’t be bothered to pick them up.
Today fucking sucks. This is awesome.
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February 26th: Day 10
So far, today isn’t too bad. My back pain is gone almost completely, and despite some side effects from my kidney disease meds, I’m physically feeling pretty good. Emotionally…I’m not sure. I miss Joshua like crazy, but I get to see him tomorrow night, so I’m trying to keep my head up about it. However my mother’s boyfriend has been more than a slight annoyance...
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stupiddrama asked: I really like your blog! If you have time please could you check out mine? It would mean a lot to me :) x
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Today, thus far, has been a better day.
Yesterday kind of blew, but so far today is alright. Slept in, had pizza for breakfast, watched some Supernatural, and don’t have to do much if any real work until my madre gets home in 2 hours.
Sometimes lazy days are just really good for the soul: no stress is so what I need right now. Also, I applied at a couple more jobs today, hopefully they prove fruitful.
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I'm back in Oregon...
Due to some last minute drama, my mother and her boyfriend came and got me and all of my things Wednesday evening. I spent the night with them and Joshua before we headed out Thursday morning (Joshua will be here by Monday night). We got here late last night, and my big brother’s birthday was Wednesday. I didn’t think he was as upset as he apparently was that my mother came to get me...
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WAIT WAIT WAIT!
How do people have snow in Sims 3??
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February 20th: Day 4 in my Pursuit
Today was an okay day. Went to SF and had lunch with my old roommate and went to a bunch of toy stores and acted like children. However I got shat on by a bird within the first 2 minutes of being in the city, so that blew. Then I got to see Joshua a bit ago, and got a ride to the store for packing boxes and some food. But that only happened because he had a very bad day so he really needed me....
I got shat on by a bird today.
The universe has been shitting on me all month long, but today, it decided to do so literately. This is apparently what I get for going to San Francisco to have lunch with a friend.
nephronlove replied to your post: When I get too stressed, I relapse.
The same thing happens to me. You’ve got the right attitude. keep fighting and I hope all is well.
That is the plan, I’m doing what I gotta do. Good luck to you with your problem.
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When I get too stressed, I relapse.
So now, on top of moving and dealing with shitty roommates and being depressed, I’ve also got my health to stress out about. I tested at +2 today, but besides yesterday I, admittedly, cannot recall if I’ve been remembering to take my medication.
I’m supposed to be meeting a friend for lunch today, and I feel the need to hide it from everyone (except Joshua) until after all this...
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I'm determined to find a job.
I’ve applied to about 6 jobs this morning, plus the 2 I applied to last night. I’m determined to get a job as soon as possible after I arrive back in Oregon. I don’t want to have to live in my mother’s living room any longer then absolutely necessary. And I also want Joshua to have a place so that he can go back for his cat as soon as possible. I still feel guilty for...
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February 18th, 2012: Day Two
Today was a hard day. Not only because it’s Mike’s birthday but because I started packing today, and it feels a little like giving up.
I keep telling everyone that I’m just putting school on hold for the semester, but I’m not sure I really believe that. Before all of this happened, I was considering Motion Picture Photography as a focus. But now, I’m not even sure if...
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That shitty moment when you realize what today...
Mike’s birthday. For those that don’t know, Mike is one of my many ‘bruders’, aka family friends that are like brothers to me. He passed away 3 years ago and I miss him terribly. Why do the greats always die young?
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I couldn't sleep last night.
I was up until about 2am watching shows because I couldn’t get tired enough to sleep. I took a shower around midnight, a long over due shower at that. It helped I guess. I didn’t eat anything more yesterday, so I’m going to aim for eating at least three times today. I have to start packing things up today, and I’m not feeling very motivated but I’m trying to push...
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February 17th, 2012: Day one of my Pursuit of...
I had a hard time eating today. I had to force myself to eat and only managed to do so twice. Every time I eat I feel a little…off. I can’t really explain it. I’ve been watching United States of Tara. I think it makes me feel better to watch a show about a life worse than mine. It helps to remind myself that it could be worse, plus it makes me laugh sometimes. It drives me nuts...
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My Pursuit of Happiness: Starts with a story
This is gonna be a long one, so open it if you want or ignore it if you don’t. It all starts with my roommates, Lance and Julio. Lance is the only one of us on the lease, and since I returned from a trip home on January 24th, he’s been a total pain in my ass. First he was using MY note pads to leave notes to Julio and I about doing the dishes, or vacuuming the hallway, or whatever....
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I'm starting something new.
Once again, I failed to be active on here as I promised. However, due to unforeseen circumstances and a massive event of bad judgement on my part, I’m going to have a lot more time to be around for awhile. Possibly a long while. Because of the things that have been happening, I downward spiraled into a deep hole of depression. I was forced to drop out of school, and am in process of moving...